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The name is MELISSA. I'm just a simple girl trapped in a complicated world.

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Yes, my brother, reza (bang eja) is going to married on January 2009. I don't know how i'm feeling. I feel surprise, disapointed, happy, creepy, and awkward!!

Yes, i'm surprise when my mom called me from jakarta and said, "Non, bang eja mau nikah sama Nazwa bulan Januari!". And i respond nothing. For a while. Then i said, "Wah,,kok bisa??" .....

And i also disapointed with him, because i heard this news from my mom, not my brother. I want him to call me and ask for my blessing. (Is it too pathetic?)

But i am totally happy that he wanna get married! Finaly.. My lovely brother will have his own family with the one that he loves.

And it also creepy and awkward (i can't find another word..So i use this word) and here is the explaination.

FYI, i'm the only girl and the youngest in my family.. (Can u imagine that? I'm the only girl that has 4 brothers). So, all of my brother has a full love for me, their cutie sister (hehe). But in this situation, he will divide his love for me and for his future wife. Ahh.. I just not ready yet to have this situation. And the point is... i found my self jealous!

And i feel so awkward. I feel like the stranger. In his preparation to the wedding day, i don't even there to help my family choose the place or even the dress! (i want my brother wears the white tuxedo and marry in a boat that sailing in the ocean. Haha.. See? I have a good imagination. I can help them to prepare the wedding). But i'm here. In Malaysia. So i just do nothing for it. I can't be the important person right now. And my family being buzy all day and not calling me for a week. Yeah, i will be the perfect stranger on January, when i'm landing in Jakarta 2days before the wedding day, and I just come to his akad nikah and resepsi, like the other guest. It's not like i am his siter. And i hate that.

You know what? My boyfriend said that i'm not mature enough. Yeahh,but i dont know, sometimes u will forget the matureness and being selfish. Not too selfish and i am not childish! Yeah, i admit that he's right but i dont expect anything from my family or my brother, but i just dont wanna feel weird for his wedding. I'm here, and know nothing.

Anyway.. this is my brother's photo pre wedding (thanks to kak isal that always keep in touch with me and report everything about the progress of the wedding)

I just wish the happiness for them.

♥our lips must always be sealed

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