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This is My Journey
a mobile developer who wants to see another brightness side of this world

Biography

The name is MELISSA. I'm just a simple girl trapped in a complicated world.

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Mediabox

"If we live our life in fear,
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again "


MusicPlaylist
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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "cheese" or "chocolate"?

Ice-Cream
a blackberry
Love TV SERIES
a fresh graduate
now a Programmer
and wish to get a wonderful life


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rahadinar raneswari
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Edenia a writer
Kiko the storyteller
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Creditorials

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Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hey, this is a video by Infant Sorrow vocal by Russel Brand.


Actually this is an old video from Forgetting Sarah Marshall movie, but i forgot about that movie until I downloaded the movie again and watch it a couple of days ago.

Hey, Russel Brand still looks hot in here and his voice is not bad (which is GOOD actually).

Anyhey.. he looks awesome with Katy Perry, i must say.



And heeyy.. they are engaged after new year 2010. CONGRATULATION! i wish you guys a very happy marriage.

♥our lips must always be sealed
12:12 PM

Monday, February 22, 2010

When I came to my room this evening i just hope someone was inside my room and screaming "April fool!" or "Happy Birthdaay!" or "Gotcha!" because today was really bad. I am really tired. I had class at 9 - 11 and continue another class which is LAB java at 11 - 1pm. After that, i was going straight to the library to do my final year project. I haven't eaten at that time.

2 hours later, i am still stuck on my coding. Couldn't do anything.

Why was that happening to me? I am trying to study, Ya Allah! I'm not like other people who is doing the thesis just copy other people's work or even just buy it from the student-project black-market. I will not doing that. I am trying, i had my faith but now i kinda lost it. I have no faith anymore. I am tired. I think i am a good girl compared with my other friend in Jakarta. But why not help me? Why can't i do my FYP??

After that, at 4 o'clock im headed to the bus stop, waiting for the campus bus that supposedly will come at 4.30.

tick tock
tick tock

Time's up! I can not afford it anymore. In the bus stop it feels so hot, and way beyond dirty and surrounded by a super ghetto people. I am sorry to say this. But that's what i feel when i was there.

Then around 4.40, there it is.. Bus that i'm waiting for is coming.

But then again, it's so crowded and there's no seat left so I had to stand up from campus to my apartment. One question (oh maybe two):

Is Malaysia Truly Asia?? But why is every single MALE passenger inside that bus doesn't want to give their seat to the girl?? There's just 5 or 6 girl that didn't get the sit, and there's almost 30 MALE student who just enjoy sitting with no feeling. Oh My Goodness!

Then inside the BUS which i was not having a seat and standing between stairs, suddenly I lose my balance and im kind of fall 2 times. It's embarrassing!

After 15 mnts ride, home sweet home.. and but there's nothing sweet about my 8th floor apartment because it's really shiny n really really hot!

But i got a 5 mnts happiness because my package just arrived. It's from my mom, there's 1 jeans, 1 guess's bag, and 1 guess's necklace. Thank God. I really love my Mom.


sssttt there are panties also =)



Yeah I am VERY happy but then...

i called my mom to say thanks she told me
about "the girls" which are the new comer in my family, which are my brother's wife and my other brother's gf. Something terrible about the pregnant wife. And i just can't tell it on my blog but i just hate them. I want them to have some respect for my mom because no body can do anything badly to her. And do not try to take my place there, bitch! Because you will not be able to replace me. You are nothing but a sucker.

That's my day.
Follow by the night i have fight with Harold. Sigh.

What a bad day.

Ps. I'm sorry for the non-appropriate words. I am just mad. A bit.

♥our lips must always be sealed
6:26 PM

Sunday, February 21, 2010

is it???

oh my god, i really need you right now. I really need God in my final year because i dont know what to do anymore with my Final Year Project. I dont wanna extend my degree... I dont wanna stay here any longer. huhu..

Ok, here is the situation.
I am doing my FYP with java (JSF) using eclipse ICEFACES. You know what, the icefaces is something new that is really hard for me. And the database that i use is HSQL with HIBERNATE XML CODING. That is so fucking difficult!!

Why am i have to choose him as my supervisor? Why did i do JSF not JSP?? Why am i using ICEFACES not just standard eclipse? Why the hell is so complicated, difficult and hard for me??

I am sick pretending it's all gonna be ok. But the truth is.. it is not. It's just getting terrible and terrible all the time. I am so sick of that!

Pleaseee i need help. I dont know what to do anymore.

I just want my life back.

I want Jakarta's life, with all my friends and the radio world.

I hate this situation.

I can't even make a progress on my fucking system.

I dont know what to do. I am stuck.

♥our lips must always be sealed
9:39 PM