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The name is MELISSA. I'm just a simple girl trapped in a complicated world.

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Thursday, April 29, 2010

I couldn't believe now I'm in Malayisa, studying here, leaving all my life back there.

I couldn't believe I decided to live here, alone.

I couldn't believe I almost done my degree.

I couldn't believe it's been 3 years and I still cannot find the answer why God sent me here.

Why?

always big WHY with question mark.

But none answer.

3 years I've been thinking maybe this is the best thing for me.

Because I knew i was praying in my bed, every night, a week before my flight here.

I thought this is the best thing for me.

But..

Why is Malaysia?

Why is not Australia?Why is not America?

Why is not Indonesia?Why is not Jakarta?

I must admit, 3 years in Malaysia, been really good for me, good as in experience.

I got so many experience here, i get to know people from all over Indonesia, start from Aceh, until Irian Jaya. I also get to know people from all over the world, Asian to African people.

But again,

it's not the happiness.

I feel lonely. I feel empty.

Why do I study in Malacca? Why is not KL?

maybe it's better if I live in KL.

In the night, when i flashback in time, it's like I'm living backwards.

I supposed to be prettier, but i am not.

I supposed to be more confident, but seems like i lose my confident since I cannot get along with all people here.

It's feels like, when I'm in Jakarta, i have no problem with friendship, new people, new environment, entertainment world, et cetera.

But in here, I feel my self pathetic. Living in reverse.

Now, i miss my friend.

There is no such good friend here.

All competitor, all seems like my rival in here.

Now, i face one new problem.

Do i have to go back to Jakarta or stay here?

I really really wanna go back home and do my internship in Jakarta so that I can meet my friend, having a good time again, and having my teenage time.

But if I do that, it's like I waste all the last 3 years here.

This supposed to be my chance to success, doing internship in Malaysia and get a job in Malaysia. Get all the experience of working world in overseas.

But i can't stand it anymore here.

What should I do then?

Do I have to follow my heart.

or let the logic wins?

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