And again, I don't know for how many times that I have to leave my comfort zone.
Believe me, leaving your comfort zone is not easy. I think I already discussed about this in my old post.
If you ever leave your comfort zone, you really are a brave person and I'm gonna give you two thumbs up! Lol that's it, yes only thumbs up :D But seriously, it really is a big move if you ever did it.
And hey, have you ever giving up on something that's so important to your life? Because I'm about to. Or perhaps I'm gonna say that I'm in the progress of giving it up, to let it go. As much as I love it (okay, I know everyone realize now that I'm talking about one particular person here) but I have to let it go. Okay, yes.. I'm gonna let him go.
Hmm and this case is very different with the previous one.
Now I'm not giving up because I don't have any feelings for him anymore, it's vice versa. I still have feelings for him.. too much feeling for him if I must to admit, but thing's just not working out between us. Ehmmm.. noooo.. nooo.. actually, thing's really working well between us. We're a great friend, we're a great partner, we make a really great couple but there's things that I couldn't explain between those great things. Things that can't be shared, things that can't be told. Things that I really regret. I deplore why this thing has to happen between us. Why is it so hard to work things out. This small thing become too big. I fight for this but I can't fight all by my self, right? I still really wish we can work this out, someday. But if not, yeahh maybe God drew us different path.
People say, I deserve so much better than him.
But I think He does deserve me.
Fuck what people say.
Back to the comfort zone topic.
Hahahaha what did I tell you? That story I wrote above, almost open up every secret of mine. It's private and I shouldn't have written it in here. But I did it and it was nothing, so just let it be. For you guys who read this, I know you know who or what I'm talking about. But sssttt just keep it between you and this blog, okay :)
Hey.. comfort zone! I'm gonna leave ALL OF THIS soon enough. Soon enough for me to miss him, to miss them, to miss this laptop, to miss this environment.
I'm gonna be a fresh one. I'm gonna make it up to my self. I'm gonna be a better person and be more careful with everything. I'm gonna be an important person. Important enough to attend the meeting, important enough to be anywhere, important enough to be missed when I'm not around :')
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:10 PM