You can see this videoFirst my friend showed me this video but i dont wanna see that because from the title 'You can let go now daddy'. The title is very sensitive. But i cannot help my self to not watch it. So i watch it and again, I cannot help the tears, this video is really touching.
Wind blowin' on my face
Sidewalk flyin' beneath my bike
A five year-old's first taste
Of what freedom's really like
He was runnin' right beside me
His hand holdin' on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street
Chorus
You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I'm ready
To do this on my own
(It's still) (It still feels) a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go
I was standin' at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one I've been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife
When the preacher asked,
'Who gives this woman?'
Daddy's eyes filled up with tears
He kept holdin' tightly to my arm
'Til I whispered in his ear
(Repeat Chorus)
It was killin' me to see
The strongest man I ever knew
Wastin' away to nothin'
In that hospital room
'You know he's only hangin' on for you'
That's what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breakin'
As I crawled up in his bed, and said
You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Your little girl is ready
To do this on my own
It's gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go
You can let go
Actually my dad is already gone since i was 7. And i really couldn't let him go, until now. But it's really precisely the same with that song when my father was dying at the hospital, he always called me and ask me to be an independent girl and can stand with my own foot. I think the hardest thing before he died is to leave me alone. Leave his only daughter, leave his little girl.
And of course it's my hardest part of my life also.
But heyy.. i survive until now. 12 years is a long long time without him.
and look? I still can be a girl. A good one.
Yeah and i'm lucky that he is my father. He was the best father ever! I can feel it until now. I can feel his good name at POGI and very proud that my father's name is used as the name of the awards for the best doctor of obgyn from UI, which is Tadjuluddin Awards. I love you, dad!
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9:38 PM
Grateful that i have such a very loyal friend! It's been 3 years since we graduated from highschool but we are still close, as close as this..
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11:28 PM
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Today I'm a useless. Doing nothing but actually the case is i am having a lot of projects and assignments. There is a workshop system that is not done yet, and another java project, then the web application projects using php. Damn it. Too much projects this semester n i lose it. Not yet, but I'm having a really trouble to focus on that. It's dangerous because i risk my GPA which is so bad. I would have done better this semester but i am not. Why? Is it so hard, Melissa?? I don't know.
Anyway today i was watching the series. Again. Continue the next episodes of Gossip Girl Season 3, Entourage season 6, Melrose place, The office season 2, and last but not least the vampire diaries. What a good and wasting time! hahaha
What am i gonna do??? Oh I'm really wanna go back to my country. Oh yeah, speaking about my country.... i feel really sorry for the earthquake that happened 2days ago in Padang, Sumbar. It was a really bad earthquake you know, 7.6 SR! Can u imagine it? I really feel sympathy for my country.. why would it happened to Indonesia? like always?? Is it true that my country is having a lot of bad people inside doing the wrong things?? Wrong things like what?? Whore things?? Or government corruption? Come on! Every country has that people inside!
May be it's true. God punished us.
Or may be it's wrong. God loves us and wanna show us the right way to go with give us that earthquake.
Just forgive me for every mistake I've done. I still wanna live a life on this earth. And watching the earthquake video on youtube made me really hurt. I am afraid it will happenon me one time. Once it happens to me, i really don't know what to do. Do you guys know? Share it with me anyway if u know.. ;)
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2:11 AM
