
Thursday, November 17, 2011
I wish I can be a better person than I am today.
I tried so hard to not insult anyone or make anyone feel bad because of me.
I would never do something bad to anyone, but I'm about to do something terrible.
Not that I want to do it, but I have to. I have to make a decision which will make someone crumble. I need to stop thinking with logic, for once. If I continue this with only logic, I will never get into my final decision. My heart against my mind.
It's gonna be the biggest mistake that I have ever done in my life.
Biggest mistake that I have to do. I know it's a mistake if I do it, but it will be so much wrong if I ignore this thing.
I would never forget what I've been through.
Those memories will be here forever, in my heart.
So, if I really do it, soon or later, please, don't get mad to me. Please don't. I just think it's the better decision at this time. With all my heart, I apologize for everything.
I'm willing to take this risk because I know it's the best thing to do.
I will take all the blame on me. Just scream and punch me, but please don't do anything stupid to yourself.
This is not good, huh?
I'm scared.
♥our lips must always be sealed
5:46 PM

Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Gosh, I'm so sleepy right now. I am at the office with these panda eyes n feel so crocked. I'm exhausted. I'm a whacked girl with no energy left to do anything today. I know my body is here, but I don't know where my mind is. Perhaps I left it somewhere.
I just had a terrible day yesterday. Found out something unexpected.
Can't really explain it. It's like all the secrets has been revealed.
What should I say? Nothing. I just need to let go of these things. I just want to work my brain out. Until there's not enough space on my mind to think about what happened not only last night, but also what happened in these past few weeks that been bothering me so much.
♥our lips must always be sealed
11:28 AM

Wednesday, November 2, 2011
it's 5.30 PM
the boss is sleeping
two guys are playing PES
one girl is facebooking
the other girl is surfing the internet
two guys are looking at the monitor seriously, play online games
one guy is watching movies
one guy seems doing his job behind his laptop
one guy is looking at his monitor maybe working or googling
one guy is doing nothing while drinking his coffee
and one girl is watching all of them.
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:23 PM
I don't know, but there's time when everything seems really messed up to me. And when that time comes, I feel like screaming.
I want to scream like hell.
But most of the time, I didn't scream. Because it's just so embarrassing to scream without reason. Okay, there is reason, but people around you doesn't know what is the reason, right?
So, if you're just screaming, you will look like a complete crazy person.
Or insane.
Or desperate.
That time comes to me once a month.
When my hormone goes really high and my emotion is just not stable.
yes, it's PMS!!!
Dear PMS, I really hate you!!
Sincerely,
a-girl-who-doesn't-want-you-to-come
♥our lips must always be sealed
12:38 PM